As hard to believe as it may be, a narcissist does feel envy.
The reason this may surprise you is due to their lack of ability to be honest, with both themselves, and you.
Envy seeps through their pores, and comes out in anger, sabotage, punishment, guilt and shame.
As they watch you live fully supported by your own good-natured character, they're watching certain traits, six in fact, that you have.
The narcissist longs to possess even just some of them, but they know they never will.
Today is where we talk about you, and all the positive things you bring to the world…
…Or should I say, everything the narcissist envies about you.
#1 How deeply you are able to feel
You feel so deeply, and that should be a part of your character that you applaud.
I know it can feel heavy at times, especially when so many big emotions may be circling around you, but hear me out:
Those who feel deeply, experience life deeply, too.
You appreciate the little things. You stop to admire the sunset, or see the immediate beauty in watching the rain fall.
It's wonderful. You are happy for others just because they're happy and it's contagious to you.
You're sad when your friends feel sad because you can see, almost even feel their pain, too.
A narcissist wishes they could feel like that. Not because they want to feel, but because they want to seem like the most genuine, authentic people that are out there.
All that pretending that becomes tiresome over time, and yes, the mask can slip, which is a huge risk to the narcissist.
If they were able to feel, they wouldn't need to pretend, and everybody would love them as much as they love you.
What a great person to be, except they aren't!
#2 The close friendships you have
You have friends, and while you may not have numerous, the friends you do have are honest, loyal and true.
You've probably been friends for many years, and have been through thick and thin together.
That's what makes you have such a strong support system.
They love you for who you are. You're vulnerable together, and don't mind sharing when things are getting you down.
You also celebrate the wins and make the most of life when it brings you joy.
It's a beautiful position to be in, but one the narcissist will never be able to understand. Deep down, they wish they could.
Their lives are made up mostly of pretending to like people, and secretly wishing everybody would love them unconditionally.
It's not as easy as it sounds to make that happen, but here's the really interesting part:
Narcissists don't have friends because they can't stick around long enough to make real connections.
Sharing your life with people who want to be your friend means to share fears and vulnerabilities.
To admit when you're feeling low. To laugh, to cry together. To show your imperfections to people who you know won't judge you.
Try telling a narcissist that it's okay to not be okay, and you'll get laughed at by them.
They think they're perfect, and they thrive on shallow relationships in order to keep people at arm's length.
For them, that's the safest place to keep people. If they need anything, they will draw people in and closer and spit them out when they feel like it.
#3 How able you are to rest
Tired? You rest. Want a chill day? You rest. Storm outside and you want to light the fire and get cozy? You rest.
It's amazing how emotionally healthy people listen to their bodies, but more importantly, are comfortable doing so.
Rest to you isn't negotiable. If everything is getting to be too much, you don't hesitate in kicking back and making sure you catch up on what you need.
Yes, that can involve being alone, and you're more than okay with that.
The curtains get drawn, the candles get lit, you may even draw yourself a bubble bath and listen to your favorite playlist or podcast.
You don't get bored in your own company, because you kind of like it, maybe even better than being around a bunch of people.
The narcissist? Forget about it. They hate their own company.
Being alone and able to rest means they have to stop. The people you don't mind not being around are the people the narcissist needs for attention, energy, supply, gossip.
They're envious of the fact you can let that all go in favor of just sitting around as they probably call it.
If anything, that should make you want to do it more. If you've enough experience with narcissists, you'll know that your attempts to rest will be opportunities for them to make you feel guilty for doing it.
Don't be.
You earned it.
#4 Your authentic layer of integrity
You're a person with strong morals. You know what's right and wrong, and you tend to stick to leading a good, honest life.
You're happy doing so, because it's the right way to do it, and you don't question it because what's the alternative? To lie and deceive? To abandon what matters to you?
These things simply aren't negotiable for you.
A narcissist wishes they could live this way, but their lack of conscience and built up, inflated ego means they're only looking out for one person, and one person only…
…Themselves.
That means they will lie to get what they want. It means they can and will cheat on you while demanding your loyalty and honesty.
It also means they will not hesitate to drop people who don't agree with them or fall at their feet.
Narcissists have zero integrity, but they really wish they did. Having it means you're naturally respected, no questions asked.
You don't have to pretend to be a good person, because you already are.
That has to hurt the narcissist.
#5 How warmly strangers receive you
Everywhere you go, you glow. This natural, authentic radiance is so confusing to a narcissist, who tries so hard to get people to like them.
You? All you have to do is smile and everybody feels better.
It's the energy you give off that really makes people trust you and like you.
The beauty of that is that you aren't even trying to impress or be somebody that everybody likes, you just are that person.
The narcissist feels threatened by your character, and envies it to the point where they lose sleep.
#6 All the ways you will be remembered
She was such a kind person. I loved the way she gave everybody time. I really enjoyed that weekend away with her, she made everything fun.
No matter what you're being remembered for, in life or death, you'll be known as somebody who was positive and keen to help others.
Your support for them will mean you're left being thought of fondly, rather than an aggressor, or a person who constantly enjoyed creating and witnessing conflict.
If only the narcissist could say the same about themselves…
…That is why you're envied.
